not much to update today. I'm at the in-laws again, continuing to get Keira used to the place and the people. not sure if its working, but we're going to keep trying. I've only actually left once, and the rest of the time tried to stay out of sight but still within earshot. I think I need to leave her again, just so I personally can get used to the idea.
wish I had a picture to post up today, but I haven't really been taking too many pictures lately. I have taken out my DSLR again, and shot a few pictures with it the other day. I really should start shooting again, so that I can have my arsenal of Keira photos to tide me through my days at work.
I have just over 2 weeks left of maternity leave and back into the workforce I go. Still have mixed feelings about it, but thanks to the wisdom of my own mom, I know that I am doing it to provide a better life for my family and not because I'm going out to a club. Keira won't remember these times of sadness, but rather will have a lifetime of happiness to look forward to.
the tears still come to my eyes when I think of what lies ahead, and I know it's going to be a hard transition for me. I never thought I would have such a difficult time, but no one ever said life was easy. I just have to trust that my baby is okay, and that everything I am doing is for her and for Mike.
I realize now that my current uneasiness is affecting Mike too. He worries about me when I am upset, and I hate that. I admit that I do forget about his feelings and that he is also Keira's dad and has worries of his own. I can't forget to be an outlet for him as well, a sounding board for his own personal worries about everything. I think if either one of us could stay home and be with Keira, we would.
on a much lighter note, Mother's Day is coming up...my very first one! holy schmoly, I'm a mom! hahaha...did that just occur to me or what? There aren't any plans just yet, but then again we don't think further than tomorrow nowadays.
Keira seems to be getting better in the fussiness department. She still has her moments, but most of the time we can figure out what it is she needs. Both Mike and I are keeping our fingers crossed that this is just a phase for her. I can't wait for the day that she can sit up on her own, or play with a toy knowingly, or have her first bite of solid foods. our little munchkin is growing up before our eyes and we don't want to miss a single minute of it.
KK, we love you.